& Simplicity ♥

i hv ntg to blog. anymr.
i guess.this is it.
when your heart breaks
no words cn describe the anguish tt you feel.

a season of heartbreak at this end
and a season of bliss at the other

im nt abandoning my blog, for goodness sake.
this will just be it.
No more post now. No more him.
till then.

You're all I ever wanted ;

<3 [break]

oh how intricate this feeling could be.
my world fell apart.
and the reason is you.
no million words could bring you back.
i knw because ive tried.
and neither a million tears could bring you back.
i knw.because ive cried.

while i was holding on, all you did was to let go.
frm nw on, whenever you think of me, remember tt im back a friend,
and tt ure the best ive had so far.

You're the reason I live and the reason I die,
you're the reason
I smile yet break down and cry,
you're the reason I keep going and the reason I fall,
cause without you in my life I'm nothing at all.

but ive made a choice to finally let go.
im hurt. i can stand the pain no more.
it's time for my last tear to fall dear
and for me to start smiling again.

tk good care of yourself wherever you are.
cause i wont be thr with you. dont even think for you.
dont take my hand anymore this time.no more turning back.
because if you do, ill keep running back and you knw i dont want to.

" To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back.. "

so please go my love.
love and stop hurting.

i love you

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sidetrack: my dear nurses, im scheduled for an urgent lft. can u blv it..

You're all I ever wanted ;

ngantok-ness = berterabur english-ness

itz gonna be a brief post. so read if u must. leave if you think itz nt worth spending time reading.

u knw the feelin of being unappreciated and being used when needed?
feelin it nw.
incredibly lazy to think abt it even.
but itz depressing. stupid but amazingly true.
and i want to cry. stupid emo me again. what's new.

to you yes you, i dont knw what you want frm me.
buzz off.and i hate you.

to ir, i love you. no 1 cn replace you ever in my heart.

to dee, i feel you. i dont knw why. i miss my mr bestfriend badly too. i hope to see his home number dialing me.but itz never gonna happen.lol.

to sis.i want my mp3 back.thk you.

to zila.n dayah. thks for spendin most of ya valuable time with me.i truely enjoy ya company.luv u ppl.like crazy.

and back to u.leave me alone la siak.or i tink i shud leave u also.[mentally]

goodbye.yes to you.

*happy 18th of the month people.

and i miss 181206

and i want to sleep nw. u people go away. dun mind my crap.

You're all I ever wanted ;

6 weird things about me

as tagged by beloved tini.
6 weird things abt me.

[1] i admit to the fact when girls say they are nt angry/sulking, it means they are. i'd be angry if you dont blv my word. ['wen i say im nt [angry] it jolly well means im nt'].but i'll sulk/tear wen u actually did [blv]. i find it uncanny.

[2] i craved for food when im down.

[3] i find it hard to sleep when im worn out. the more exhausted i am, the longer it tks to fall asleep. [esp when my body aches]

[4] i fear cats. in fact i wont get near them. it's strange enough to be in a car with it, sending it to the vet when it is sick. [just for the one i love ok]. love conquers all. yay.

[5] i have insomnia [recently]. and i count kambings to sleep.

[6] lastly..! i talk to my poohbear. do you??

lol. to the 6 lucky peeps im gonna pass this to, all the best. time to rack ya brains. doodeedoo.

6 lucky peeps in my list.
>> mint
>> azi
>> sue
>> diana
>> hidayah
>> rahman

cheerios.

You're all I ever wanted ;

ku bertanya

Adam AF2- KU BERTANYA

Adakah diriku kau tak perlu lagi?
Adakah cintaku kau tak perlu lagi?
Adakah dirimu dah berubah hati terhadap diriku.

Adakah insan lain bertakhta di hatimu
Hinggakan dirimu mengubah cintamu
Manakah janjimu yang kau beri dulu kepada
diriku..

Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah
selama-lamanya
Bulan menjadi saksi pada malam itu
kau kata kau cinta.

Sayangku dengarlah rintihan hatiku
Ingin kau kembali seperti dahulu
Kenangan di jiwa membuatku rindu kepada dirimu.

Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah
selama-lamanya
Bulan menjadi saksi pada malam itu
kau kata kau cinta

Kiranya diriku kau tak perlu lagi
Simpanlah kenangan cinta kita dihati
Walaupun sukar ku akur kali ini
Biarlah ku pergi

Maafkanlah ku bertanya…..

You're all I ever wanted ;

inner thoughts pt 1

ignore this post people.
i just wanna write for the fun out of it.
and blv me.
the urge came str frm the bottom of my heart.
and i wanna let it all out.

i miss muhammad shahroum bin abdul rahman.

I MISS..

>>his jokes. [on kambings]
>>his merepeks.
>>his laughter.
>>his sarcasm.
>>his sexy voice.
>>his naggings.
>>his everything.

and to think
i just heard it all last night.

to dee.
happy birthday.
i miss you. and ur craps at flume ride.
stay happy with mr bf ok.
cheers.

You're all I ever wanted ;

intimacy

i love it so much. thank you.

You're all I ever wanted ;

an effort to fall asleep

APER KAU NAK DARI AKU LAH BODOH!

dont be surprised tt ure hearing all this frm me. but some people just dont deserve my respect.

the shits tt happen today. not in any sequence order ok.

[1] i just realised that the man's no longer in my friendster.
and i totally have no comments on tt.

[2] i feel so tired easily now. and i dont knw why.

[3] i misplaced my topshop blouse. and im soo pissed off. in fact super pissed.

[4] my msn has gt a virus. had to ask a friend for help. and he actually sighed at me. blame me for being emo.

[5] scan, scan and more scanning for threats in my lappie. and itz taking a whole load of a time.

[6] had no choice but to listen to a friend nag, for nt scanning my lappie frequently.

[7] i cant sleep. why do you think im blogging at this hour, posting crap, entertaining y'all..

[8] shahroum suggested tt i should count the number of sheeps.. but i aint sleepy still. it gives me giddy spells instead.

[9] so on and so forth. i dunknw what to blog nw.

so what hv i learn today?

[1] listen wen people's nagging. my bad. talking la k.

[2] eat my medications on time

[3] do nt trust people blindly. when a guy told u that he loves you over his gf, it means he's nt.

[4] place my stuffs back into their original places.

[5] how to count sheeps

[6] how a camel looks like [when they are on grasslands]

[7] and tt shahroum has an imaginary mole [or what he called it 'goatie lah']

ahakz. i know la ok.. ur descriptive writing aint tt bad afterall. lol. i can really imagine hw a camel looks like after you described. you damn funny.lol.

and im super bored. super pissed. super super super erm.. superman.
2 more weeks. to no-teeth-freedom.

You're all I ever wanted ;